Mood Swings

Ok today is not a bad day. It's sunny and it's Friday.

I have been thinking about doing MBA for years.
I actually thought I wanted to do this since undergrad years. To be more precise, around 1998. I started to think more serious about it for close to 4 years. Since master's, since I started working, I knew that eventually I wanted to do MBA.

So even though I haven't really applied yet, it's been an ongoing process in my head for years. Starting earlier this year, as I started looking into more information and studying for GMAT and all, it became the real thing.

Some days, I am good. I feel that my academic background is pretty solid and that I can be a student who can really contribute to diversity of each class and that my working experience is adequate to go forward. Some days, I get scared. And I doubt myself. Is my undergrad GPA good enough? Is my working experience good enough? Am I good enough?

At the end of the day, my conclusion is who cares?
I have been preparing myself for this up and coming application season and I will proceed as I planned. I don't give a damn what everyone says. I have worked hard to get here and I will work hard throughout the application process. At the end of the day, I hope that I will get to choose where I go but if I don't get in anywhere.... hmm then what do I do? I actually didn't think that far ahead. I don't have a backup plan. I just believe in myself to do what I can do so at the end of the day, I will at least have one admission.

But above all and beyond, today is a day when I don't feel as confident.
I think all this thinking and studying for GMAT and what's happening at work and all... I think it's getting me all weary.

I am tired. It's Friday and only plan I got is studying. Man.. That sucks. : (